I Do What i Want

Hi, I'm Gary. 21 and SoCal (:

I don’t want to expect anything, but there just some times where I can’t help it except feel some hope that something might happen…

I finally felt like I’m in the go with the flow kind of state again where I just take things as it comes and don’t have any expectations so I don’t have to stress or think about anything else…

A vibration from my phone goes off while I was about to finish dinner out with family and of all the people it could be, it was you. I honestly didn’t know what to say. I wasn’t sure how I felt when I received it, but I guess a little part of me was happy that I wasn’t the one sending the text first. It just felt so weird that I didn’t start the conversation especially when we stopped talking for the longest time and when you said if I wanted to hang out with you that night with some friends. I thought I was being trolled since this seemed almost impossible for me to find it happening and maybe you just wanted me to give you a ride since you couldn’t get one. I pretty much had the idea of what kind of hangout it was gonna be and I was right when we got there. I saw another side of you that I didn’t know before and learned what has been going on with your ex along with a bit of your childhood. I don’t know why you wanted to share now after all this time, but I understand what you’ve been going through a little better.

I don’t know what to say sometimes to you, but I’m glad we can spend some time together again even as friends. In all honesty though….. I may not always have the words or advice to make you feel better but what I do have is the arms to hug you, the ears to listen to whatever you have to say, and the heart; the heart that aches to see you smile again. If you somehow come across this..I just want you to know I just want you to be happy and I want you to know that I’m here for you no matter what…I like you still

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